Saturday, 3 September 2011

We are pregnant!

Exactly a year ago, we found out that we were having a baby and let me tell one thing: it was an absolute shock to the system. 

I had just lost my grandad 5 days ago and did think that this was the simple explanation for me not having my period. I didn't think for a second that I could be pregnant. We weren't trying for a baby and most of all, I was on the pill. But when I was feeling sick three mornings in a row and my mum jokingly told me not to make her a grandmother yet, I started worrying. My mum had fallen pregnant with me when she was on the pill. What if her fade was now mine? 
I started to search for pregnancy symptoms on Google and man, did they convince me: Feeling sick? - Tick! Tender breasts? - Tick! Constantly feeling tired? - Tick! A strange taste in my mouth? - Tick! A period that had gone missing somewhere? Tick, tick, tick, tick, tick! I couldn't believe it and told Ben what my mum had said and what Dr. Google was suggesting but instead of having a panic attack, he simply said: "Well, let's buy a test when we put in my prescription tomorrow and then we'll see". By the morning, I had convinced myself that I was pregnant. I had downloaded a baby app for my phone and was looking at the different development stages MY baby would go through before I finally managed to get to sleep. Suddenly, this all felt very real. I was sure we were going to be parents UNTIL I went into the pharmacy and actually bought the test.
I was sure that I had built my hopes up just to be disappointed. So on our way home I kept saying "I'm sure I'm not pregnant", "I'm sure I'm not pregnant" and didn't stop, until I carefully weed into a glass and dunked the test strip into it. It said "Pregnant 3+" before I could even say the word pregnant and oh my god did that emotional roller coaster hit me quickly. I had no idea what I was feeling: I was happy, I was nervous and I started crying when I came down the stairs to show Ben that we were going to be parents. Would I be a good mum? Could we afford a child? What would my parents say?
A year on, I couldn't imagine life without Amy. She's the best thing that could have happened to us and we love her more than words can describe. She is such a happy little baby and I am so incredibly proud of her. She has changed our lives over night and I am still overwhelmed by the feeling of unconditional love that overcomes me when I look at her and she gives me the biggest smile in the world - even when it's at 4.30 am. 

I love you my little Piglet ♥


  1. Yay! A whole year huh? What a fast year it's been aswell! So happy for you being a mummy is such a brilliant experience and Amy s gorgeous and you have been mostly lucky with her sleep routine too (jammy woman!!) xx

  2. I'm sure I'm not the only person who thought that you were newly pregnant NOW. I was just about to pop the champaign.

  3. I was like that with my first, I had no idea, I hadn't had a period for three months but that was not unusual it happened all the time, and I started to feel sick and then one day I craved beer (of all things!), so I thought something is wrong, I went to the doctor for all sorts of tests and then went back and saw a different doctor a week later and he said 'right because your pregnant', and he must of seen the look on my face because he siad 'you do know your pregnant, don't you?' I had no idea! That was 5 years ago and my little baby is now at school for his first day today, oh no I'm welling up again!!

  4. Yes, I thought you were announcing another pregnancy! :-) My little girl is 4 months old and I keep thinking that I would want to be pregnant again!

  5. Haha, I know. Everyone tells me how lucky I am with her sleeping that well, especially because she is solely breastfed. x

  6. Haha, no not just yet. I think I'd rather wait a couple of years :)

  7. It's a great feeling, isn't it? I absolutely loved being pregnant. I had a good pregnancy though. I have friends who felt absolutely dreadful. x

  8. awww, i knew before i did my test but it was still a shock to actually see the result :) your daughter is beautiful



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